December 2009
12.29.09
My night was pretty mellow, and rather boring until about 11:30pm. I was just reading and eating and watching Gossip Girl, hah. But, then I went and picked up Aaron, and showed him one of mine and Stacey’s spots, which he already knew about. Then, he took me to the most incredible spot I’ve ever seen. It’s in between mountains and then looks out over the city, and there’s...
"aimless drivin, eh?"
Spent the night driving all around scottsdale, paradise valley and phoenix with Emma, taking photographs and driving up mountains overlooking the city. I serisouly love nights like tonight. <3
I feel like writing something at the moment, but I have no thoughts in my heaad. So, I’m just posting random photographs that I like instead.
Wow, I just read that aloud, and I didn’t mean for it to rhyme, haha. Oh goodness, now I’m just rambling. Anyways. That’s all I have to say, hah. :)
merry christmas,
Today was lovely, actually. Despite the fact that it was Christmas, it was just a good daay. I love getting presents and taking photographs. I love that every year instead of going to a party or having some super nice dinner that we usually get take-out and go see a movie. And, I really love my family.<3
12.23.09
It’s been one year. Today. Since the first time we really talked. About us.
A year ago, I was listening to nevershoutnever, all giddy and happy. Now, when those songs come on, I turn off the radio. I don’t want to hear what used to make me so happy. I just want to curl up in my bed, and try to scream so loud into my pillow that I can’t even hear my own thoughts. I can’t...
I've Learned
I’ve learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them. I’ve learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don’t care back. And it’s not the end of the world. I’ve learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it. I’ve learned that it’s not what...
If it means a lot to you,
yesterday was pretty rad.
I really liked just driving and singing to each other at the top of our lungs, haha. (:
christmas-time
Doesn’t seem to hold the same magic it used to.
One year ago, on this day, I was in a hospital room with all my family. That will never happen again. Last year, we had to deal with Christmas without my Grandma. Now, this Christmas eve, we won’t have Debbie.
One year ago, around this time, I was just beginning to have feelings for you. Now, I’m not sure if I ever want to feel...
dearestsamantha:
Merry Christmas Baby- Brighten...
you know that little lump in your throat that you get right before you breakdown and start crying? well, I’ve been fighting it down for 10 months now, just wondering when it will go away.
From Where You Are
Lifehouse
<3
song of self.
I cannot believe how much I have grown to love this project.
At first I figured I’d just chose a song I like and write about its’ meaning. I didn’t really want to pick a song that has affected me, because I couldn’t imagine standing in front of the class spilling my feelings out, making me completely vulnerable to everyone. Yet, by the end of the first presentation, the...
“And now that it’s gone, it’s like it wasn’t there at all, and...”
– Death Cab for Cutie
Title and Registration
Just completed my song of self. I think it’s pretty damn good.
Today kind of sucked. Had a few breakdowns. But, I’m just ready for bed. I prefer my dreams to reality for now. I’ll get over it though. Even though I hate when people say, “don’t worry everything’s gonna be okay” I think everything is going to end up okay. At least I hope it does, and...
I should’ve just kept driving this morning.
But instead, I went to church. I thought to myself, “it’s okay, they’ll let me go out driving late.”
Well fuck. I should’ve kept going. Taken the 101 past Tempe, through Mesa, just continuing on. Because right now, the only thing I want is to be driving. Away from fucking everything.
december 6, 2009
I miss last year around this time.
Everything was so perfect. I was just becoming friends with Kate, the idea of you was fresh in my mind. I liked you and you liked me. I listened to songs like “30 Days” on repeat, because I was always in such a good mood. I had pretty decent grades, I loved all my friends. I was excited to get my license and even more excited about how often we...
12.2.09
today sucked.
this whole week has sucked so far. but I’m already over it. I’m used to being disappointed/forgotten/ignored/fucked over. so, it’s almost okay. I’ve got a list of songs to download and books to read. I just need some time to myself. so, yeah.
but, on the bright side, I’ve got some pretty rad people in my life.
Krysta wrote me a note.
Aaron kept...
“I’m looking through you, where did you go? I thought I knew you, what did...”
– The Beatles